Tormented again

I don't know why I do this to myself, but I have recently returned to staring at, the now cheaper than the beginning of the season, boats again.

I even added to the torment by taking a trip to a marina to check one out. I took some pictures, saw the boat was in desperate need of some TLC and went to work with fantasies of cruising the 1000 Islands next year on it after a "little" touch up.

Then my wife saw the pictures and the reality hit.

At -409$ in the bank, one of my major stocks in the toilet, a job that has no clear future, 10 payments owing to Sears for renovations on a house I no longer own, and 32 payments left on a car, I can't believe I even went to the marina.

I guess I am the sort of person that needs big changes to be happy. Those changes can manifest itself in different ways for me. Changes like buying something big (i.e. a boat), or renovating the house in a big way or cutting a big tree down. Something that has big changes give me the sense my life is moving forward.

It is borderline insanity to rationalize a boat purchase at this time in light of the current situation and yet I know if RTK does not have some form of mental stimulation happening I will drift over to the net and see what kind of deal I can get.......in the undetermined future of course!

bayl